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An Open Heart {a fairytale}…

This past month I {half-heartedly} participated in the Creativity Boot Camp put on by Madeline Bea. I would have liked to have done much more with it (and probably will go back and do just that in the near future) but until then, will be trying to participate more in The Sunday Creative that she is hosting.

The Sunday Creative

And without further adieu… here is my entry for this week…

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An Open Heart {a fairytale}…



Bible The little girl began paging through the Bible on the end table as she sat next to her grandmother in an oversized chair at the corner of the cozy living room. Suddenly she stopped and looked at the page more intently, then to her grandmother and back at the Bible.

“Grandma, why do you like this Bible verse so much?” the little girl asked.

“What do you mean?” the grandmother said.

“The words are highlighted AND underlined. That means it must be REALLY special. Mom only underlines the words in her Bible” the young girl explained.

The grandmother straightened herself up in her chair and began speaking softly. “Let me tell you a story.”

“Once upon a time there was a young woman who was fair and beautiful. She had much going for her in life… a loving family, wonderful friends and a job she was very good at. But she wanted to be much more than that. You see, this girl had already done some extraordinary things in her life – like travelling the world – but there was something missing. Love.

“So one day she set out on her journey to find love, only to find that she ran into setbacks and roadblocks all along the journey. She looked and looked for the person that would be her lifelong companion. But no one appeared. And eventually her heart grew dismayed and she settled into a life where she thought she would be alone forever.

“The young woman stopped looking for this companion and instead focused on learning more about herself and her faith. She began studying the Bible very intently and came upon this verse in Proverbs during her devotions one morning.

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

“So the young woman continued her studies and learned that she had closed herself to the possibility of being loved. She had stopped trusting that God would provide a husband for her. She had stopped believing that was beautiful.

“But as she continued studying her Bible, she learned that she was beautiful and that God loved her. She found that God delighted in her adventures and was sad when she felt lonely. She continued to learn and wanted to keep learning more.

“And then one day her Prince Charming came along.”

“A prince… really grandma!?!” The little girl exclaimed.

“Well, he wasn’t really a prince. And even when this man came along, she wasn’t really interested in him as more than simply a friend. After all, she had been hurt before. But with the help of God, she had opened her heart to become a friend to him and trusting again. She began to share her hopes and dreams. She began to share her fears. The man did the same. They each found it so easy to talk to one another. They became best friends.

“Soon they were dating and talking more often, and then trust between them grew into love. Then one day, this man asked her to marry him.”

The little girl interrupted suddenly, “Oh grandma, that’s wonderful!”

“Yes, it was. And they did get married in a beautiful wedding ceremony with that verse highlighted. Because without trusting in God, the woman may not have opened her heart to the man. She may have looked past him when they met or not returned his call.

“40 years later, I still love your grandpa so much. He is still my best friend and God continues to show us new things… including the joys of having a granddaughter just like you.”

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The role I want…

There was always some part of me that wanted to be famous. For someone to recognize me on the street and really know who I was. But then when the (mostly local) fame came to me with my appearance on the Rachael Ray Show last year, I realized how much I didn’t want that. I didn’t want to be in the spotlight.

And I wonder if it’s because I just didn’t know how to react to it. How to deal with it. How to be who I wanted to be. Or maybe it is because I still don’t really know who I am.

Identity has been a difficult issue for me in the past couple of years.

I always knew who I was and how to act when I was overweight. I grew up that way. I was comfortable being the shy girl in the back of the room… not being noticed by anyone. I was the girl who walked into her current job interview and said that I would never sell (still true by the way). I still am the girl who does things “behind the scenes” at church and at work.

But how do you know who you are when you are completely different than who you were?

I feel like I’m playing a role… a lifetime role now of “being the girl who lost 160 pounds” even though that’s not the role I want. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a good role… for the right person. And I’m not saying that I want to gain the weight back, but it is the sole thing that I am known for. It’s the “fun fact” that the people who know me (and are proud of my accomplishments) share with people that barely know me.

This makes me wonder how well the people that truly love and care about me really know me. I know in a lot of cases I hold back on much I share with family and some friends about my life and my true feelings about things. I don’t want to be a failure in their eyes. But I do want them to know me. Just like I want to know each of them.

I want to be a traveler. I want to be a writer. I want to be interacting with others each day. I want to be a wife. I want to be a mother. I want to be doing something I love. I want to have a purpose in life.

Now I just have to figure out how to find these roles that I long for…

5QF: Musical edition…

Hoooorrraaayyy! I did a video blog for you today!! :)

It’s 5 Question Friday with Mama M.

I have to say, last week I wrote that I would do a vlog this week… and I almost ALMOST chickened out. So let me know what you think… and if I should stop doing these, PLEASE tell me. I kinda feel like a dork. Haha!!

Here are this week’s questions…

1. Do you know how to play a musical instrument?

2. What is your pet peeve while driving?

3. Would you rather have a housekeeper or unlimited spa services?

4. Is there a song that you hear that will take you back to the moment, like a junior high or high school dance?

5. What song best represents your life right now?

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