Back when I signed up for the 25k in January, I really thought I could do it. I really thought that I had it in me. I thought I could run for almost 3 hours and survive.
Did you know I went crazy back then? I really did. I know that there are many, many people that can run for 3 hours and feel great after. I however, run for 15 minutes and want to throw in the towel. Not to mention that I am the SLOWEST runner of anyone that signed up for the running program at my club. OUCH. So here I am… trying to train by myself – in pain from the jaw issue – and not wanting to do it. Hmmm… can anyone guess what I’m about to say next? 
I am no longer running the 25k in May — wow. I wrote it. I’m ok with it. I’m actually deliriously happy about it.
And while I am not running myself into a crazy oblivion… I am still going to challenge myself and run the 10k. I can totally accomplish this — and feel like I can try to improve my time over my one and only 5k. So in other words… I want to essentially finish in under an hour. Maybe I can really strike a crazy fancy and make my goal to be 55 minutes. I don’t know why, but it sounds better than an hour.
In all of this, I discovered something about myself. I do things to “impress” other people. I have the accomplishments set to show other people that I can do anything… but guess what — I know I can do anything… after all I lost 160 pounds without trying to “impress” anyone. I did it for me. I did it for my health. And if I am brutally honest with myself – I did it to have new adventures that I knew would not be possible without losing the weight. {Some of these adventures I imagined have not yet come to fruition… but I have faith.}
I can do anything… and that’s what I want to share with the world. It’s possible. Because if I did it — a girl that procrastintes in most things, a girl that has very little self-control and a girl that scares easily & will run from the unknown — ANYONE can do it.
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Wow! 3 hours! I can’t do it!
Stopping by from SITS to say HI! I have made a promise to myself to visit and comment on all blogs posted to spread the love!
I’m jealous you ran for 3 hours. I can hardly do it for 5 minutes.
Wow, 160 lbs?! How awesome is that? It’s obvious you can do things for yourself and not just for everyone else.
I am just about to embark upon my second round of C25K. I ran (jogged) my first 5K in September of last year and have since let myself go. I’m going to be starting again in a couple of weeks with the intent of doing a 5K this summer. I cam over from LBS, glad I found your blog!
Kena – Oh I *wish* I could run for 3 hours… I really can’t. I would fail miserably!!
I’m going to try to run for an hour!!
I give you mad props for even attempting to try!
Steph @ A Grande Life
I will rollerskate beside you and cheer you on if you wish, running–um not without CPR…….